It’s been awhile since I talked about my health and fitness journey on here, and that’s probably due to a combination of avoidance and life getting hectic. For the past several months, I’ve been struggling emotionally, mentally, and physically…and only now, am I starting to feel like I’m getting my sh*t together. It’s still a loooong road ahead, but I am definitely feeling more sane, relaxed, and grounded now.
Back in October 2016, I started to feel a bit off. My stress levels started to increase and my health started to decrease. Up until December 2016, I was still training to compete in a bikini fitness competition…but I finally cracked and decided it’s not the right time. For my sanity, I needed to take the pressure off and just focus on feeling better.
In January 2017, I developed a pain in my shoulder and severe tension in my upper back and traps, which hindered my training and caused lack of sleep and moodiness from the constant discomfort. I was going for Active Release Therapy (ART), RMT, acupuncture, chiro, and physio appointments every single week, while working two jobs and taking my Personal Training course. I was tired, overwhelmed, and unhappy… It was about this time that I started to binge eat…like there was no tomorrow. I succumbed to every little craving, and would eat even when I was super full.
I progressively gained weight, lost energy, lost motivation, became depressed and just went into this deep dark hole where I also convinced myself that it was a good idea to take some time away from the gym. So for three months, I let myself relax (though I did not feel relaxed at all) and focussed on work and my studies (though I also had a lot of trouble focussing). My health didn’t get any better and neither did my stress levels…in fact, it got worse. Soooo, I highly recommend that you DO NOT approach stressful times this way 🙂
In April, I decided it was time to get my a$$ back to the gym…so I did, and it felt amazing. It was a struggle, and it was not fun trying to wear my gym outfits and realizing they don’t fit the same way anymore…but I still went. I wouldn’t let that bring me back down. It was this part in my journey where I realize that patience is key. When I can accept where I am and be gentle with my approach, the whole process just feels that much more enjoyable.
In May, I had an intense few weeks as I prepped for my Personal Training exam, but I made sure to fit in workouts because I realized the importance of them, not just physically but very much mentally. They made me feel good, they energized me, they reduced stress.
And NOW, here we are…wrapping up the month of June! Everything is gradually coming together again. I have not lost any of the excess weight that I recently gained, yet I am feeling SIGNIFICANTLY happier, calmer, more energized, and confident compared to just a few months ago. Why? Because I made ME a priority and got myself back into that fitness lifestyle, doing what I love. There are so so sooooo many benefits to staying active, even if it’s just a brisk walk or a few bodyweight exercises a day… keep moving and your body and mind will thank you for it.
There’s still a long road ahead for me, and I am super excited to work towards my best body, inside and out. I’m excited for the learning that will come with it, and I’m excited to share and inspire along the way.
Tomorrow, I will be kicking off my 3-month program alongside my friend, owner of High Level Think. He sees the value in health and fitness like I do, and we are going to be “accountability buddies” to achieve our PEAK FITNESS! Can’t wait. This will be amazing to experiment with our own individual programs so that the learning can transmit into the work we do with our clients. (Btw, he’s not a personal trainer…visit his website to see what he does!)
Follow my journey on Instagram @xosheenalouie, and feel free to contact me if you have any questions or would like start working towards a happier, healthier, more confident version of YOU!